Wings of Steel

September 2, 2008

Heaven’s a Lie: Act VIII

Filed under: Chapter Nine — Mao @ 10:43 pm

Answer me, it can’t be so hard
Cry to relieve what’s in your heart
Desolation, grief and agony

Trying to move
down in this grave
Trying to believe in every faith
As another bridge to clarity

Want to stay another way

Take another chance
to find a distant sanity
and turn your pain in truth
Take another chance
to fight a different enemy
and try to free it

Dance with me,
it can’t be so hard
Time to reveal
what’s in your heart
grief and agony

Walking through a life decayed
while you’re repeating
your mistakes
There’s another chance
to try to get away
Lacuna Coil, “Daylight Dancer”

She hadn’t missed his presence, she was simply choosing to ignore it. She focused instead on the tender skin of her arm, long nails gently moving across the surface. The scars were gone now, but not forgotten. Her body was a ticking time bomb, there was no telling when they would return, bleeding as if they’d just occurred a moment earlier.

Until that time, she’d enjoy her ability to wear short sleeves without feeling like some sort of mental patient.

“Beryl,” he began apologetically, knowing full well she was ignoring him. Eye for an eye, but she was very much awake and not being harassed by a mirror of her past. “I wasn’t trying to ignore you on purpose.”

“You were just having a nap,” Beryl shot back, though made no motion to acknowledge his presence. “As if that’s any better.”

“I wasn’t sleeping,” he replied, desperation and frustration obvious in his voice.

Beryl rolled her eyes and sighed heavily, “then what were you doing? Or is some super secret thing I’m not allowed to know? Why is everyone allowed to have secrets but me, did I miss the super secret meeting where the decoder rings were passed out?”

Bracing himself against her sarcasm, he sat down on the tile. She avoided looking at him, her acrid tone more than enough to show that she would rather be anywhere else than in his presence at the moment. Still, he was adamant. The last thing they needed right now was for Beryl to be obstinate. He just wished he could explain, though he knew that wasn’t an option.

“What did Sanctus Unus say, Beryl?”

“Oh, now you want to know.”


  1. Oooooh!!!!! You tease. I love the cliffhanger. Oh Nicholas, listen to your sister damnit.

    I love the scenes between Christian and Beryl, they are always so beautiful, poignant with this sense of bittersweet love.

    And poor Beryl, inadvertently helping the bad guys because of her existence. Man, that woman has been through too much!

    I keep meaning to ask if you plan on doing any wallpapers of the characters, particularly Eckhard. Just curious because he would be awesome on my desktop *chuckles*

    Fantastic update as always. Can’t wait for the next update but take your time. The suspense is so much sweeter when we have to wait :-)

    This chapter is just one big tease after another. ;) I’m really glad you enjoyed the scene with Beryl and Christian, that was the most important part of the Act. If you didn’t get anything from it, well, you’ll get your answers soon enough. Those who did know what’s coming. I actually hadn’t really planned on it, but I can try. I’m just horrible at making wallpapers. I have an old one I made of him for myself, will have to see if I can find it!

    Comment by Anghard — September 2, 2008 @ 11:16 pm

  2. Oh goodness, you tease so…

    I love the scene between Beryl and Christian and yet it feels cold. What has Sanctus Unus demanded…

    Still I love it and Melissande, wanting so much to protect her poor fool of a brother. I suppose someday hopefully he will understand.

    Still like nicholas though, LOL

    Haha, it’s not always on purpose, but a little suspense is necessary here. I’m glad you noticed that. And Melissande didn’t come to protect her brother, she’s just seizing the opportunity. She is not to compromise her true mission for Nicolas, though.

    Comment by Cheripye822 — September 2, 2008 @ 11:38 pm

  3. …Dangit. Sometimes I wish you hadn’t told me things probably wouldn’t end well for Beryl and Christian. WAAAAH, MY FAVOURITE COUPLE. *sadface*

    Have I mentioned I think Nicolas looks damned silly with his long hair and goatee? No? Because he does. XD

    Hehe, I don’t know what you’re talking about! I said no such thing. ;) And yes, he does, but I prefer it to his other look. It fits his changing personality… not that he has any allegiance except to his wussy self.

    Comment by V — September 3, 2008 @ 2:30 am

  4. Well told, once again, Mao. I love Melissande’s attitude. Beryl being pregnant, I’m like =O.

    Is this the last chapter, or is there going to be more? Is there going to be another story? Please say yes! I love reading your stories and absorbing myself {Even if I forget to eat =P}.

    There’s one more chapter after this. As for another story, I don’t know. I have an idea, but real life may get hectic for me soon. So it’s wait and see.

    Comment by Dragongirl — September 3, 2008 @ 5:25 am

  5. OMG! You know.. sometimes I really like Melissande and sometimes she’s a pain in the ass..
    Right now she’s desperate, so much things happening at the same time that you can barely think about, you just have to act and run like the crazy one trying to at least save a little piece of the things you care about.
    So.. Run Melissande Run!
    By the way Onael’s place give me the creeps, and her crazy daughter too!

    She’s not there to save Nicolas, she’s there to stop his stupid ass from ruining yet ANOTHER plan. If she happens to save him in the process, so be it. This is Melissande we’re talking about… and she’s a woman on a mission, haha.

    Comment by seeing_red — September 3, 2008 @ 9:05 am

  6. Short and, well, not so sweet. But I got no answers, just teasers about Melissande. Mao, this is not going to be enough to hold me till next week! You couldn’t even give me one teeny little answer? At least for once Nicolas looks hot instead of slightly creepy. I’ll try to console myself with that.

    Haha, sorry, answers will come in the next chapter!

    Comment by Fini — September 3, 2008 @ 10:50 am

  7. Yes Beryl, now he wants to know and golly gee so do we! so spill it already. gosh she’s stubborn.
    LOL Beryl the sane one .. okay ya thats funny *snickers*
    eeps run Melissande run! *sits at the edge of her seat and clicks the next page*
    *swoon* omg great shot of Nicolas … eeps again! hide quick! omgomgomg .. *bounces* great cliff hanger .. omg .. but of course it is.. you’re Mao! *giggles*

    She can’t tell Christian and we’ll see why as it’s revealed through flashbacks in the next chapter… Haha, thanks!

    Comment by ruby — September 3, 2008 @ 11:10 am

  8. whew I am so glad that Oneal can’t/wont hurt Beryl and the baby. I am glad also that Melissande was able to catch Nicolas before he ruined the plan.

    Haha, yes, that was some luck!

    Comment by Detris — September 3, 2008 @ 11:41 am

  9. It took me a while to leave a comment because this one literally made me cry. Christian’s quiet question: “Is it bad?” It certainly seems that way. And Beryl’s astonishing gentleness with him. If he tells then she tells? Really?

    I hope that’s Melissande to the rescue.

    extremely touching and intense. The reference to Beryl’s pregnancy; the switch between her bathroom and whatever dungeon Melissande is running around in — striking. And I adore the shot where Christian is sitting on the floor beside the tub — just beautiful.

    everything seems to gathering speed toward the end, which I hope won’t be a train wreck.

    Aww, Beth! I’m sorry it made you so upset. It was difficult for me to write, I must admit. As for Melissande, she’s just capitalizing on the situation. I know I already went through all of this in our email exchange, so I’ll cut it off here. Thanks! I’m glad you enjoyed it.

    Comment by Beth — September 3, 2008 @ 12:36 pm

  10. I had forgotten how much I liked Beryl until just now. ^__^ I wonder if Christian will tell her what he’s experiencing. It IS good to know Onael can’t hurt the baby, or Beryl, now we can see it! Will we see it (the baby)? Will it actually be theirs, or will you create it in CAS first? (I remeber you said your Sims would create hideous children. But Beryl is hot and Christian is hot… What will it be, like Species Wise? Redeemed Vampire Human Demon Cado Angelus? Ugh, so many questions!)

    I am amused by Melissande’s escape, for some reason.

    Beryl and her wit. ;) He can’t and she can’t tell him either. That’s what is so bittersweet about the exchange. As for the child, I didn’t make her separately. I rolled the pacifier in CAS and got what I got. If you think about it… we’ve already seen quite a bit of her.

    Comment by Josh — September 3, 2008 @ 3:41 pm

  11. Loved the update, and the pictures of Beryl & Christian. They looked really realistic, and cute. They’re by far the cutest, annoying couple ever.

    Haha, thanks! They are quite a duo and never boring, that’s for sure.

    Comment by jacqueline — September 3, 2008 @ 8:00 pm

  12. I want to cry, they always managed to get me all sentimental. Darn Beryl and Christian. The baby is a she? I can guess when we had seen her.

    Aww, Karen! I’m glad you had an emotional response to this. :)

    Comment by karen — September 3, 2008 @ 11:36 pm

  13. You give all these little hints but I’m never sure which way you are going to go with this. Beryls existence is becoming more and more convoluted if Onael needs her and Sanctus Unus does too (at least for right now). And even though they are both just sort of waiting to play their part, it has made Christian and Beryl a bit more reliant on each other for support. It may not be supper sloppy love buy yay for Beryl finally feeling like she can lean on someone at least a little bit.

    I suppose technically Melissande did manage to stop Nicolas, but with the way trouble finds its way to her brother it can never be simple.

    If you can’t figure it out, then I’ve definitely made it dubious enough! I want people to have a sense that something is going to happen, but I don’t really want anyone to know for sure yet. That’ll be coming soon enough. Beryl’s existence has become a problem… but as of yet, has not been dealt with. Haha, Nicolas does have a penchant for trouble…

    Comment by goodbye_sun — September 4, 2008 @ 2:22 am

  14. Okay, so I know things were hinting at Beryl being preggers, but I guess I had to hear it directly from her…


    But I love that couple to death… even though Beryl is right, everything they have to deal with is leaving them on the insane side of the spectrum. I’m dying to know exactly what went down between her and Onael.

    And Melissande. I have to admit I didn’t have much faith in her, but it appears that she’s actually going to follow through…

    Haha, that is the hundred dollar question, isn’t it? ;) And I think you mean between Beryl and Sanctus Unus. We’ll find out in the next chapter!

    Comment by Veron — September 4, 2008 @ 12:04 pm

  15. Aw, I love Christian and Beryl’s relationship now :)

    It’s sweet, in an odd sort of way.

    Comment by Phil — September 4, 2008 @ 4:42 pm

  16. You know that I always hated Beryl and Christian’s relationship. But in this act, I’m really very touched with their interactions.

    Moving right along…you said that we’ve already seen quite a bit of their child..I’m going to make up another silly thought right about now. Ok, so you said we’ve already seen her…could it possibly be that little mysterious kid Lucy? I mean, that actually doesn’t make sense because she’s not even born yet, but you never did clearify her purpose. I thought she was Sanctus Unus…but if she’s Sanctus Unus and Beryl’s child, that just doesn’t make sense. One day I’ll figure it out. Needless to say, this is REEAALLY a great story. I’m in love.

    Aww, that’s too bad. Their relationship is a big part of KiD and WoS. As for Sanctus Unus, yes Lucy and Sanctus Unus are one in the same. It’s important to remember, though, that Sanctus Unus has no corporeal form of its own. It only ‘adopts’ one every so often to come down and visit with the mortals and check in to see how things are going and move pieces around on the chessboard to keep things moving. Glad you’re enjoying it, thanks!

    Comment by Eva — September 4, 2008 @ 6:24 pm

  17. Mao, you’re a tease, but that’s why I love your stuff. :D

    Christian and Beryl…I’ve always loved their relationship despite the fact that it is strange but that’s what makes it so interesting and good. In a way.

    As for the baby. That’s going to be one interesting child. I just hope its folks are around to see it.

    Thanks! I see you’re all caught up. :D I’ve never been able to do normal love, but that’s good, because it’s boring. If my own story bores me, then I’m in trouble!

    Comment by E. Black — September 5, 2008 @ 3:09 am

  18. I dont want christian to die :(

    dont die chrisian!!!

    I hope Melissande gets Nicolas back for slapping her. she should kick him where it counts.

    Haha, I’m sure Melissande hasn’t forgotten one. She’s not one to let something like that pass. She can hold a grudge pretty well.

    Comment by Alex — September 5, 2008 @ 6:43 am

  19. Why did you stop there!!! OMG!!! that was an incredible chapter, full of emotions… I’m glad Melissande has a plan, I hope Nicolas wont ruin and will listen to her!! But Nicolas is all messed up and yes he is clueless!!!

    Now I’m almost completely sure that Sanctus Unus is behind Melisande’s plan and I’m some how relieved! Hopefully they both (Nicolas and Melissande) will make it out of there alive!

    I feel really sorry for Christian, I don’t understand what is going on in his mind, but I bet Era Onael’s daughter is behind it all….

    And Beryl, I hope nothing bad happens to her or the baby, she has been thru a whole lot…. and I can’t imagine anything else to happen for her, but with you, I never know what to expect which is great!!!

    Beautiful writing as always, and the pictures amazing lighting!!!

    I’m really thinking about getting the lighting hack you are using!!!

    Great job!!!

    Thanks, glad to know you enjoyed it! Beryl has been through the ringer, but it’s hardly over yet. We’ve still got two more Acts of this chapter and the final chapter before us. So there’s no telling what will happen then. I am quite evil to my characters. Samaria doesn’t realize what she’s doing, so that’ll be fun, too.

    Comment by sandybvv — September 7, 2008 @ 1:15 pm

  20. I’m late to comment and I am sorry about that. Beryl’s and Christian’s relationship is one of my favorites because they don’t give each other an inch and yet they are there for each other. It must be hard to know certain things, want to know certain things, and yet not be able to confide in each other. Very bittersweet and I want so desperately for those two to be all right in the end.

    I was also going to say that I thought perhaps Lucy would be the child they end up having but you never can tell…

    Loved the exchange between Nicholas and Melissande. They are like the dark comic relief! I am so hooked on this…

    Hi there, Gayl! Don’t apologize, you just worry about yourself and take it easy. There’s no time limit. :) As for Lucy, that’s a good guess, but we’ll have to wait and see. There’s a lot more at play that will be revealed, I’m just waiting until the final chapter to do so. ;)

    Comment by Gayl — September 7, 2008 @ 9:13 pm

  21. I can’t believe there is just two more acts and then the final chapter :( what will you do next? hope you have another story coming up!

    I have an idea, but I’m not sure if I have it in me to complete another series, but also real life allowing, too. Everything is tentative, thus why I’ve announced nothing. Plus, I’m doing stuff at my SimFic50 site, too.

    Comment by sandybvv — September 9, 2008 @ 7:55 pm

  22. Oh dear… this is not good. I hope it’s not Onael but if it isn’t then it is someone almost as bad.

    It’s not Onael, but that is a small comfort at this point…

    Comment by Verity — May 2, 2009 @ 12:37 pm

  23. Oh, I loved this! I didn’t really realise how much I missed Christian and Beryl together until she came back! I loved their scene, it was beautiful.

    Thanks, Carla! I enjoy writing for them.

    Comment by Carla — January 3, 2010 @ 11:57 pm

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