Wings of Steel

April 9, 2008

Ava Adore: Act VII

Filed under: Chapter Seven — Mao @ 12:00 am

I remember when all the games began
Remember every little lie and every last goodbye
Promises you broke, words you choked on
And I never walked away,
It’s still a mystery to me

Well I’m so empty
I’m better off without you and you’re better off without me
Well you’re so unclean
I’m better off without you and you’re better off without me

Paint the mirrors black to forget you
I still picture your face and the way you used to taste
Roses in a glass, dead and wilted
To you this all was nothing
Everything to you is nothing

As wicked as you are, you’re beautiful to me
You’re the darkest burning star, you’re my perfect disease

It’s over now…
Five Finger Death Punch, “The Bleeding”

Ava awoke abruptly, jumping off the bed in a panic. It didn’t take long for her to notice her own state of undress and a cold, creeping chill made its way up her spine. She pushed back the wave of nausea that followed and closed her eyes, bracing herself against the anxiety.

It hadn’t happened, it couldn’t have. It was just a silly, messed up dream. It was perhaps the most vivid and realistic dream she’d ever experienced, but a dream, nevertheless. There was no other explanation. Ava wouldn’t sleep with Christian (though, admittedly, if she had there was very little ‘sleep’ involved). Christian was dead and so was Beryl, right? Yes. Only Ava existed now.

But if that were really the truth, then why could Ava remember everything as if she were Beryl.

And why did Christian feel so very much alive?


  1. Whoa, Christian has a temper of note. Poor James, lol. I think Christian’s feelings are hurt, he’s always had a thing for Beryl.

    I loved the pics in this episode, very cool. Especially the last one of Beryl peeking out the window. How did you get her to do that?

    All in all, I’d say this was rather an intence episode. I kept wondering who was gonna get the first smack in the whole way through, I did not expect Christian to throw the dude out the window, lol. You had me chuckling with that one. And also very curious on how you did that to?

    Great update :)

    Everything is just using the right animation, there’s no specific effects or tricks. I’m too lazy for that, LOL! Christian doesn’t have a thing for Beryl, he’s in love with her, so yeah. He’s also protected her for her entire life and seeing her with another soul-sucking scumbag isn’t something he enjoys.

    Comment by Taryn — April 9, 2008 @ 6:57 am

  2. Well first off Christian was wrong to say ‘I didn’t fuck a stranger’ – was it just a simple fuck or did he actually make love to her?
    An extreme difference in choosing words. Perhaps had he been a bit less crass she would’ve not responded back to him as she did.
    Now honestly she thought he was dead wtf? was she supposed to not go on with her life even if it meant she was with James.
    Tsk, Tsk Christian you really should’ve known better. He is acting like the jealous boyfriend when she is still reeling in the fact that he is alive and they had sex wow! Mental overload for Beryl/Ava.

    Christian needs to get off that testosterone rush and not be so pissed off; if anything he should’ve taken his time with Beryl and not acted on impulse.

    Oh well these two were never meant to be anyway.

    Oh oh can she get pregnant? Is that the plan that Santus Unas has ? :lol:

    Precisely! Christian and Beryl have very volatile tempers and Christian’s fuse is nonexistent. He responded angrily because Beryl was trying to deny what had happened and all that, causing him to be very angry. He’s protected her for her entire life and she’s dating another soul sucking scumbag. There’s no love between Beryl and James nor does James have any truly redeemable qualities. She didn’t “move on” so much as find another person to fit the abuser role which she is used to when in a relationship. It’s easy to forget that Beryl was abused quite heavily. ;) But you’re spot on, as always, with the rest. Especially Christian acting on impulse.

    Comment by PRMami — April 9, 2008 @ 8:10 am

  3. That was intense! These folks need some serious counseling.

    Haha! So very, very true…

    Comment by Lisa — April 9, 2008 @ 9:34 am

  4. WOOO! I thought they would finally end up in the sack – you hinted that something was going to happen in a comment on the last Act ;) I can’t help but feel sorry for all three of them at the moment. The fall-out can’t have been what Christian was hoping for, even though he must have realised that Beryl/Ava wouldn’t be very pleased about it (even though it was her decision as well). He and James probably would have found out about each other eventually, but what a way for it to happen! There are going to be a few red faces next time they bump into each other :D

    Oh, you can guarantee that Beryl and James are over. Christian is alive, rendering Beryl’s need for an abuser null and void. The entire point of the relationship was that Beryl felt empty and James had access to drugs, LOL! James is just lucky Christian didn’t kill him.

    Comment by Tanya — April 9, 2008 @ 9:50 am

  5. oh ya gettin her groove on, shame she thinks it wasnt real..
    dang what a rude awakening .. poor Christian … may as well have slapped him in the face, Beryl.
    ooooooo Christian is going to meet James … this ought to be fun!
    Eep! Christian is such a billy bad ass! I love him more this time around *giggles*
    oh such a stud that James (/sarcasm) .. hiding behind Ava, thats pathetic .. sure he can’t fight Christian but to actually use your girlfriend as a human shield, thats just low … oops, couldnt keep his trap shut.. silly man, now you’re gonna regret mouthing off
    *laughing* “Pardon me” I always liked Christian and that line is just classic!
    I have to say that is a fun update Mao! *still rolling with laughter*

    Yeah, Christian really reacted badly to Beryl’s insistence that he go and forget about this. He isn’t as easy to push over now though. James is lower than low and Christian knows it, so of course, he wants to kill him. He’s also angry that Beryl would let herself date another deadbeat.

    Comment by ruby — April 9, 2008 @ 11:00 am

  6. Wow.
    I guess you meant what you said when you said these two were destined to be miserable. :( But I do so want a happy ending…

    Perhaps not miserable so much as not completely together. Anytime they get close, something tears them apart.

    Comment by Cassie — April 9, 2008 @ 11:03 am

  7. Mao gives and Mao takes away. Tingling from foreign energy? Somehow I think that there might be more than a bit of innuendo tied up in that line. And quite the blame game between Christian and Ava/Beryl, they touched on a few nerves, but didn’t quite manage to battle out all their issues. Well don’t just stand there Ava/Beryl…pick one…and pick the right one.

    Hahahaha, so very, very true! As for the innuendo… maybe, but I was also hinting at something else. ;) Christian and Beryl will likely never battle out their issues, they’re both too buggering stubborn. Beryl made her choice six years ago, she is just having trouble realizing that now that he’s alive.

    Comment by goodbye_sun — April 9, 2008 @ 1:35 pm

  8. Jeez, he’s right Beryl is acting like a bi-polar, shes so hard headed GOD! but when james came, things got funny LOL “Damn ava you fucked this guy and you make me hold it for months” hahahaha. wonder what’s going to happen…if beryl decide to stop bing such a hard head and face the facts that she will always be Beryl Cross… poor christian…and LOL @ “You were off fucking around and drinking tea with those motherfucking Eras and your precious little ‘Sanctus’ motherfucking ‘Unus’!” typical…:P

    Beryl has always and will always be a bit… frantic. ;) There were some interesting lines here, plenty of swearing. Everyone was angry, except James. Christian’s mouth gets terrible when he’s mad and Beryl was trying to hurt him because she’s hurting.

    Comment by Danielle — April 9, 2008 @ 3:20 pm

  9. Also, Beryl still makes me laugh. Even in all her craziness and misery, she still has her wit. I have a feeling she’s going to really regret the way she handled this later on, though.

    There is always that! It’s something Beryl will never get rid of. Oh, she will… but probably not for the reason you’re thinking…

    Comment by Cassie — April 9, 2008 @ 4:33 pm

  10. IT ENDED SO FAST!!! WHY MAO WHY!!!! Hold on, I was looking at someone else’s comment…CAN beryl get pregnant?!

    Haha, of course it ended so fast… though it was a good many pages longer than usual. :P Lets hope Beryl has been taking her birth controls and watching her lifetimes.

    Comment by Phil — April 9, 2008 @ 8:41 pm

  11. Wow, what a good way to end a love making session. Christian really piss off. Hope he wouldn’t get too angry and really get out of Beryl’s life. You just have to ruin their little volatile relationship.

    Christian is just really hurt and frustrated. He would never abandon Beryl, never fear.

    Comment by karen — April 9, 2008 @ 9:41 pm

  12. WOAH! i was not expecting that first picture when i clicked on the act! “woah! i see skin!” haha… aww why cant she just be nice to him… hes all nice to her and stuffs and she yells at him :( hmm i hope Beryl runs after him now!

    My fiance and proofreader had the same reaction, haha. :D

    Comment by Alex — April 9, 2008 @ 10:38 pm

  13. My sympathies lie with Christian in this one. Whilst I can understand Ava/Beryl’s confusion and anger, I really feel for Chrisitian and I applauded him for throwing James out the window. The guy deserved it in my opinion, particularly as he’s Ava/Beryl’s drug pimp.

    Great update. I hope Christian is able to mend his broken heart. That guy really deserves to catch a break.

    I’m glad to see someone empathize with poor Christian. Yes, his temper wasn’t in check, but he has a reason to be angry. Despite everything, he does love Beryl and he has a pretty good idea what is beneficial to her and what isn’t. James isn’t.

    Comment by Anghard — April 9, 2008 @ 10:40 pm

  14. Wow, those pictures were wonderful. I loved what you did with the lighting!

    As for the story, I ‘m really interested in were Beryl and Christian are heading to. Their like moths to a flame. Heading for disaster but they can’t resist it. The James thing was very funny. He really did show up at the wrong moment ;-)
    A pregnancy would be very, very interesting because they both have powerful “blood”.

    Thanks! I had trouble deciding what to do with this act. I didn’t want it to be… ‘in your face’, but I wanted to make it pretty clear what happened. James is a tool and it showed profusely in this update. ;) The ‘moth to a flame’ thing is very, very true.

    Comment by brittybe — April 10, 2008 @ 2:04 am

  15. It’s hard for me to avoid feeling sympathy for Christian, who doesn’t seem to know what the hell is going on, has reason to believe Ava/Beryl is playing him, and walks right into another typically Beryl situation — loser guy who HIDES behind her for crying out loud! And that’s a BOYFRIEND?

    I love the series of opening shots — the dark and the golden light, beautiful and sensual and romantic.

    And thanks for your help with my “lighting” problem. No, I’m not using gun mod’s lighting, or any lighting hack (that I’m aware of), but I’m going to check again to make sure.

    I’m glad you feel sympathetic towards Christian! He’s truly clueless about the whole ‘James’ thing, but he what he sees… well he doesn’t like it. James is a tool, I never meant for him to be anything but. ;) I could swear that is GunMod’s lighting mod water thing… but maybe not? I don’t have much experience with other lighting hacks. I hope you figure it out!

    Comment by Beth — April 10, 2008 @ 9:08 am

  16. I am still in shock and can’t believe that they actually made love. I had to wait until the next day to comment. WOW Christian does NOT play when it comes to Beryl and James found that out the hard way. Hmmm was this in the Santus Unus plan all along. The possiblity of Beryl and Christian having a baby is exciting.

    Yeah, it is quite a shocker… but the tension between them has been ongoing for awhile now. It was inevitable, really. Christian never has and never will ‘mess around’ when it comes to Beryl. We all remember him during the Erode and Sacrifice parts of KiD. ;) Christian will not hesitate to throw a bitch out a window, LOL!

    Comment by Detris — April 10, 2008 @ 9:37 am

  17. Wow. Poor Beryl! She’s so hurt, but uh-oh, they did end up… “doing it”, as we immature youngins say. This was a good chapter, it shows the improbable dynamics of their relationship. Gawsh, I hated James, good for Christian to throw him out the window. Is he ever gonna appear again, now that his role is nullified? :P

    James is an afterthought, a bad taste left in the mouth of Beryl’s past. We may not see him again, I don’t have him planned to pop up, but I can never say for certain. Beryl likes to change things up on me. Don’t worry, my fiance had the same reaction and he’s going to be twenty-five in a week, LOL!

    Comment by Josh — April 10, 2008 @ 1:45 pm

  18. …Honestly, I’m surprised it went all the way, but hey, if ‘Beryl’ took over, you go girl! LOL Anyway, of course she’d freak out, but that wasn’t exactly the best response that Christian gave. She’s going to hold onto that identity for as long as she can, isn’t she? She’s hiding behind it, but the events that are happening are chipping away at it.
    And James came over? Worst timing ever, dude! Aw, you’re such a wuss. You’re not supposed to hide behind a woman, you’re supposed to protect her! He’s a royal douchebag. Kill him Christian!
    Hahahahahahaha! He threw him through the wall! That was awesome! “He’ll live.” Too bad. But there’s definitely feeling for Christian left in ‘Ava,’ as illustrated by the last picture. How will they meet again? Because they have to meet again. They have to, Mao!

    Oh, you know they will! It’ll come, don’t worry. Beryl, as usual, is having a hard time dealing with what she wants and doesn’t want. She’s always been a contradictory kinda gal, so it’s not about to change. Christian’s response was triggered by Beryl’s reaction. That isn’t how he feels about it at all, but he’s tense and angry. James getting thrown through that wall has been a moment I’ve waited for since I began KiD. :D

    Comment by Infinity-Nevermore — April 10, 2008 @ 9:17 pm

  19. You are just amazing Mao. You’re shots are unrivaled. Absolutely. And I cannot.believe.Beryl.let.Christian.go. Like, I wanna smack her. But she’d probably kick my ass, so…

    Ack! You’re making me blush. :shock: Thanks!–but there are certainly better folks out there, LOL! Beryl and Christian just need some time to cool off. Her leaning out the window signifies that it isn’t quite over yet.

    Comment by Veron — April 10, 2008 @ 10:44 pm

  20. Why!!!
    I warned you Mao, if Beryl suddenly goes missing you’ll know why.

    Hahaha! :P

    Comment by monica — April 10, 2008 @ 11:19 pm

  21. can we say that beryl is being a “bitch” cough cough.
    i wonder if she’ll ever apologize…
    great update.

    Haha, yes, yes we can. Thanks!

    Comment by jacqueline — April 12, 2008 @ 6:02 pm

  22. I was so late in reading this because I had such a busy week. I had forgotten all about it until Friday and I was quite upset to learn that it was the most intense act from the whole story so far. Ah well, now I only have to wait a couple of days for the next update and not a week. I loved every minute of this. I must say that I’m quite shocked that they had sex…Beryl is so bi-polar, just as Christian suggested. Maybe the sex will somehow do something to some of Christian’s energy was transfered into her. I love Christian…I mean, his temper is horrible, but he’s such a great guy.

    No worries! It’s been quite the busy week over here, too. Whew. I was expecting people to be surprised by just how far it went, but it wasn’t really that much of a surprise. Those two have been going back and forth since they met and the sexual tension was definitely there. You’re right, though, Christian’s temper really doesn’t negate the fact that he’s truly a good guy. He means well, but he’s screwed up, too. He’s probably the only guy character I’ve ever had that’s innately good and well-meaning.

    Comment by Eva — April 13, 2008 @ 11:15 am

  23. What the crap is bi-polar? I have been at school, so it takes me a while to find the time to read this excellent story. I am not into the whole swearing bit, but it was still good. Christian is the one with anger issues now. >.< I had a bloody fight with my mum, and it sounded a lot like this story =P. This story is so great, I could eat it, seeing as I haven’t eaten anything again =D Keep it up!

    Wait wait wait, another comment, soz if this is taking up ya space. Christian doesn’t look right. >.< I have him on my desktop too, when he was halfway decent looking =P It’s amazing what you pick up from other peoples comments and- O crap my lip is bleeding again… Ok, back and what the crap was I saying? O yeah. I like reading the comments, some people hit spot on! This story confuses me though, why have a chapter and then the next chapter all about something else? It’s like my teacher says, “When you write something more after a completely irrelevant sentence, it makes you seem like your lazy” What an asshat teacher. But still, it confuses me. Keep the great story up!

    Bipolar is a major mood disorder in which there are episodes of both mania and depression. (Thanks, Google!) I actually don’t swear much at all myself, but my characters tend not to follow suit. :P You really need to start eating, lol. I actually prefer Christian as he looks in Wings of Steel. He looked like a pansy boy in KiD… he’s a bit more manly now. I’m really not fond of effeminate males (despite the fact I have two characters that are such, Nicolas here, and another in a different story), but to each their own! The Chapters ‘jump’ around to show time progression. I’m not focusing on every minute detail–the characters are developed enough, I hope, that you can fill in certain holes. We’re supposed to be covering a time span of a few years. Since I don’t want this to take a few years, I’m jumping around. It really isn’t that odd. There’s no main character, so there’s a lot of ground to cover and a lot of issues/characters to address. Ava Adore jumped out of the main time frame and now we’re resuming with Valerie and the rest in Reflection. So Ava Adore was actually the chapter that jumped out of sync, like Weight of the World did before… just to explain bits of previous events and then sync up with the current time line.

    Comment by Dragongirl — April 15, 2008 @ 6:13 am

  24. okay, I’m sorry, but… BERYL YOU B*TCH!!!!! How, why would you do that? That is one of the worst things you could have done. Christian cares about you. But man, James, I feel sorry for you! But at the same time I don’t- you’re the only thing keeping christian away.

    *sigh* when will the madness end? (rhetorical question)

    Beryl always has been and always will be a bit of a bitch. But that’s why we love her. ;) The whole thing with Christian and Beryl is very confusing and complicated. Like a constantly ticking time bomb just waiting to explode.

    Comment by liz — April 16, 2008 @ 6:01 pm

  25. WOW!!!!

    I’m so tired of that damn Ava too, I want Beryl back!!! and she just spent the night with Christian and that’s how she acts? no doubt anymore, she is definitely bipolar!!!! Stupid Beryl!! She will regret it!!!

    And James, ha ha ha ha, can’t vampires fly? lol lol that was so funny!! Well deserved!!!

    Christian is awesome indeed!!! :D

    Great chapter and thank you so much for telling me I had skipped it!!! I don’t know how that happened, but thanks so much for telling me!!

    Haha, no problem! I’m glad you enjoyed it, thanks. Very true, Ava needs to go. Bring Beryl back! ;)

    Comment by sandybvv — August 27, 2008 @ 7:48 pm

  26. Oh my goodness goshums! I can’t believe that actually happened. Woah… I was waiting the whole of Knock it down for that.

    But gee… it didn’t go so well did it. Poor Christian (although he probably shouldn’t have given a bit of thought to Beryl’s drunken state). He looked so happy and so in love in that picture right before things started getting nasty.

    And ha! He threw James Masters threw the wall. Hilarious. That scumbag certainly deserved it!

    I hoped that would make the people I disappointed with KiD somewhat happy! Haha, Christian and Beryl are very volatile. He shouldn’t have said what he did and Beryl shouldn’t have reacted the way she did. It was inevitable!

    Comment by Verity — October 2, 2008 @ 3:15 pm

  27. Oh, my gosh, BEST CHAPTER EVER!

    Christian + Beryl is such a timebomb but so, so good at the same time.

    I cannot believe Christian threw James through the wall. My jaw dropped. Honestly, that was awesome.

    Christian has a temper of note… especially when it comes to Beryl. It’s a very emotionally volatile time for them both. Thanks!

    Comment by Carla — January 1, 2010 @ 11:44 pm

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