Wings of Steel

June 18, 2008

Reflection: Act X

Filed under: Chapter Eight — Mao @ 12:02 am

This revelation is the death of ignorance
Tangled in a state of suffocation
Slave to self righteousness
Damnation is on your lips
From sorrow to serenity, the truth is absolution,
From sorrow to serenity, its on your head
This is my last serenade
I feel you as you fall away
This is my last serenade
From yourself you can’t run away
It’s your choice, point the finger
But it’s on your head
Your destination is a choice within yourself
Will you rise or become a slave
To self righteousness
Open up your heart and gaze within

Killswitch Engage, “My Last Serenade”

Christian ran as fast as his legs could carry him, anxiety fueling his adrenaline. The pull he felt was undeniable and to go against it would surely mean death. It was so powerful he was nearly swept off his feet twice, unable to keep up. He was unable to use his preternatural abilities, the desire to follow the pull too strong.

He recognized the forest immediately and while his mind eased, the pull did not. No longer was he afraid of what might be calling him, instead he was relieved. He saw her standing amidst the broken remnants of the building staring vacantly ahead.

“Christian?” Valerie’s voice wavered uncertainly, her head craning towards his direction. The sight of her cleared eyes startled him.

“Valerie? Did you call me?” He took a few steps forward, waving his hand in an effort to see if her vision had been restored. It hadn’t, the damage had just been repaired. She definitely had Antony’s eyes. “Are you all right?”

“I am fine,” she said, uncharacteristically monotone. “I just… wanted some company.”

“That’s fine,” he assured, trying to hide his confusion. “Where is Sesana? I thought she was supposed to be waiting for you.”

“She was,” Valerie replied, her face impassive. “But she and Eckhard are indisposed at the moment. I know you are saddened at the loss of Melissande, but… I needed to call on you, Christian.”

“It’s okay, Valerie. Really.” He was stunned by how much her demeanor had changed. The way she spoke was still somewhat the same, but the emotion was gone. He could feel the power resonating from her very being, encroaching upon his own. Were he not remade in Sanctus Unus’ own vision, it would have impaired him.


  1. Whoa…is someone…pregnant perhaps? o.O

    Knowing Beryl, it’s hard to tell what exactly her problem or problems might be.

    Comment by Tiana — June 18, 2008 @ 3:54 am

  2. Hmmmm, I think I suspect what Quinn and Beryl were talking about, but I won’t make any assumptions yet. Although, I do wonder why Val had to apologise to Christian.

    Btw, Val looks so great with normal eyes. Shes beautiful, and looks so sophisticated now.

    I do hope you get your writing muse back, I’ll miss this story terribly. But I completely understand where your coming from. And I hope your new shiny computer is even better than expected.

    Valerie’s apology to Christian ties back to what Sanctus Unus said to him at the end of the last Act. I’ll tell you that much. ;) I’m glad Valerie looks the part. The computer seems to be working, so far. Still installing drivers/etc. Having trouble getting it to recognize my XP HD, though… which conversely… has my WoS installation of Sims 2.

    Comment by Taryn — June 18, 2008 @ 4:47 am

  3. Valerie has certainly changed, a lot. She seems more grown, more …mature.

    And Beryl … she doesn’t seem to know what to do with herself, what to feel about Christian.

    I’m glad you see that. Although, there’s something else different about her, too. That’ll become more obvious with time. Beryl is Beryl, as you’ve pointed out, ahaha. She never seems to have a clue.

    Comment by anghard — June 18, 2008 @ 4:50 am

  4. I felt sad when Valerie said ‘Sorrry Christian’, feel like I’m going to lose him or something. So Beryl is pregnant? Yay!

    Something will happen, but I can’t say what. ;)

    Comment by karen — June 18, 2008 @ 5:10 am

  5. *big hugs*

    I didn’t recognise Val at first – she looks completely different! Telling Christian that she’s sorry is quite worrying :( And I’m wondering if Beryl has a little souvenir from her night with Christian …. If she has, maybe Val’s vision has something to do with that, so she’s sorry because she knows what Beryl is thinking of doing about it. Hmm, now I’m the one being cryptic, but I’m sure you know the direction I’m going with this. I wouldn’t have thought that it’s impossible (as it’s already happened at least twice before), and maybe that’s SU’s vessel rather than an ascended Val …?

    Haha, I’m glad Valerie’s changes seemed drastic. So much speculation–I love it! Ahhh, you know I can’t tell you anything, but you should keep an eye out. Maybe your theory will be proved or disproved by upcoming hints.

    Comment by Tanya — June 18, 2008 @ 7:28 am

  6. Mao you can’t leave us hanging like that. What is Beryl about to do? Is Valerie’s vision somehow connected to Beryl? I love Valerie’s makeover and her getting her eyes back makes he look less creepy. Valeries has grown also you can notice the difference. Poor Christian I don’t see any good coming out of this.

    Don’t worry, Detris. As long as I can get this damn HD to work, WoS will come to a fitting end. It just might take a little longer than I anticipated. I was dubious about returning Valerie to her normal eyes–I figured people would falsely assume she could see again.

    Comment by Detris — June 18, 2008 @ 10:35 am

  7. Hmmm, now I’m wondering why Quinn is wondering about her body. Did their little tryst result in something unexpected?

    So, Valerie ascended right? That’s why she can see and is all powerful… I’m not sure I like this new Valerie any better than the old one.

    As for the hiatus, it’s okay. We all go through periods where you don’t want to write, lost the will, and the creativity. I’m just letting you know that when you do decide to return, you will have one faithful reader. :)

    Could be, couldn’t be. You’ll have to wait and see. Valerie does not have her sight back, she will never see like we do again. I don’t plan on taking some huge hiatus, I just need to figure out if I can get this HD to be recognized and when it does recognize it, if I can muster up something that isn’t sub-par or awful.

    Comment by Josh — June 18, 2008 @ 11:50 am

  8. okay her power ‘must’ be strong for him not to catch the comment about his parents being… indisposed..
    Val looks gorgeous.. so grown up.. wow she grew up well .. and ooooh holy boop she’s sorry.. *shudders* that can’t be good.
    *thump* ouch! *picks herself up off the ground* okay fell off that cliff looking for another page .. hmmm.. interesting conversation.. tell who what??!!

    On a personal note.. I want to thank you Mao for the great ride on both KiD and WoS.. its been awesome! I hope you get over your block.. not for us but for you.. and ouch.. sorry to hear about your computer! If / when you come back to either continue this story or start a new one.. I’ll be right there as always cheering you on.

    Haha, yeeeah, and the scarier part is that Valerie knows. Ewww. I think you know who they need to tell and what needs to be told. ;) Thank you so much, I really appreciate it. I was overwhelmed when I finally got this new computer to work and saw all the email/comments/etc. I really do appreciate it. I’m struggling with getting it to see my XP HD, but hopefully that will come to fruition soon enough…

    Comment by ruby — June 18, 2008 @ 1:30 pm

  9. I know I haven’t commented in such a long while.
    But i’m still reading…& i love Val’s new makeover she looks like an Era.
    I have a question…
    is Beryl pregnant??? =}

    Aww, thanks for popping in! You know I can’t answer that… and the fact that I can’t should tell it all. ;)

    Comment by Jacqueline — June 18, 2008 @ 4:54 pm


    We shall see…

    Comment by Phil — June 18, 2008 @ 6:18 pm

  11. Is Beryl PREGNANT?
    I was thinking about this a while ago, and wondering if that were a part of this all along. If that was the reason why Beryl was saved and all this…after all, we know Sanctus Unus messes with people in order to create a greater end, such as a child with certain powers. I mean, sure it seemed like their own free will to “do it” and all that, but who knows how she may have messed with them to influence the whole thing. In any case, I’m glad to see her again, and know that Quinn is still helping her.
    Valerie seems SO different. Wow. And it really made me nervous when she told Christian she was sorry…
    Great job, Mao. :D Great way to end off a chapter!

    Holy crap, Cassie! LOL! That is QUITE the theory and I have to say, I love it. It makes me so happy, you have no idea, that you’ve thought so deeply about this and come to that conclusion. You know I can’t say anything, but I can say, you are on the right track. Sheesh. However, I will say that Christian and Beryl’s relationship (or lack, there of) was not planned by Sanctus Unus. She doesn’t force love, she has no real concept of it or ability to really understand it. Thanks!

    Comment by Cassie — June 18, 2008 @ 7:12 pm

  12. OH HELL NO!!! >:(
    If that HEIFER is pregnant me and Christian are so getting a divorce!(cries uncontrollably) HOW COULD HE DO THIS TO ME?!
    :( :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(

    LOL, MONICA! What the hell? Ahahaha, oh my God. I can’t breathe. I warned you–Christian doesn’t have eyes for anyone but Beryl.

    Comment by monica — June 18, 2008 @ 9:38 pm

  13. Ok, I finally caught up. I read Knock it Down but was not able to get to this story until now. I know you will not come out and say… but if Beryl is what i think she is… then this has to be one of you’re best plot twist yet.

    I absolutely love your imagination and appreciate all the work you put into this.

    By the way, absolutely love Valarie’s new look. Makes her look goddess like.

    Aww, thanks and hi there again. Glad you could make it. ;) Really, though, slogging through the entirety of both stories is quite the feat. You deserve a cookie or something. Thank you so much, it means a lot. I’m glad Valerie’s look fits her new role!

    Comment by TCCT — June 18, 2008 @ 9:44 pm

  14. There at least seem to be hints of Valerie still in there, it shall be interesting to see how much once she gets a bit more used to being a seer. And as usual Christian is having another seriously shit night, between Melissande, the ‘rents, being dragged around by Valerie and then to have whatever he sort of knew was going to happen confirmed by Valerie. I can only guess it has something to do with Beryl and her whatever is happening to her body. All the more reason for him to build his little bridge and get his arse back over to Beryl’s.

    Hahaha, I love your whole explanation of Christian’s shit night. He has a lot of crappy nights, this is true. Valerie is there, but as you said, only in pieces. We’ll definitely see more of her new ‘attitude’ as time goes on. As for Christian going to Beryl… I make no promises. ;)

    Comment by goodbye_sun — June 19, 2008 @ 2:41 am

  15. It is interesting how the concept of love, deeply felt and capable of driving one to acts of sacrifice, or stupidity, seems to have been left out of SA’s equation. At the very least, it is an uncontrollable free radical.

    Christian’s love, Valerie’s remote acceptance and foreknowledge, Beryl’s stubborn determination to do whatever she wants…best laid plans might blow in an entirely unexpected direction with that mix.

    I agree, Valerie is absolutely gorgeous. Regal.

    I love it.

    Sanctus Unus tends to take advantage of certain things, but mortals cling to foreign things it can’t understand. So that’s always a problem. Put Beryl in any mix and it’s likely your perfectly formulated plan will implode. Poor Sanctus Unus… why couldn’t she pick someone else? I’m glad you like Valerie’s Seer look!

    Comment by Beth — June 19, 2008 @ 11:45 am

  16. Shirley is back! O_O Sorry man, comp wouldn’t turn on and it took FOREVER for my dad to bother getting it fixed T_T. Anyways I’ve finally caught up and woah. Woah man. Is her body deteriorating? Is that what’s up? Why is it?! 0.o, besides that, Val looks hawt man! HAWWWT! I’d tap that ;) . Lol! I didn’t just say that xD *shakes* Update soon!

    Hey, welcome back! That’s a shame about your computer. I’ve had some troubles with mine lately, too. It definitely sucks. Hahaha, wow, I don’t think anyone has said quite that about Valerie… I’m definitely surprised. ;)

    Comment by Shirley! — July 14, 2008 @ 9:42 am

  17. Oh my god, is there a baby on the way?

    OMG!!!!! I have to find out, and I’m just 7 chapters away to finish!!!

    You’re so close!

    Comment by sandybvv — August 27, 2008 @ 9:46 pm

  18. Valerie is so eery now. It is kind of sad that the innocent, cute girl has been replaced by this empty shell filled with power.

    Sounds like Beryl might be pregnant…weee. I want her to tell Christian. I wonder what he will have to say about the matter.

    Sometimes we have to shut off parts of ourselves to get things done. Valerie is doing that right now. She’s learning, growing into the role she has to fill. It isn’t easy, not in the least. As for Beryl, well, that’s the question, isn’t it?

    Comment by Verity — May 1, 2009 @ 5:11 pm

  19. I’d guess that Beryl is pregnant but I’ve been wrong so many times before in this story, so I won’t.

    “I’m sorry, Christian”…that really left me hanging.

    Wow…I just breezed right through this chapter today, didn’t I? LOL.

    LOL! You’re on a roll tonight. ;) I love knowing what people think, so no worries about being wrong. I’m pretty bad about constant twists, lol. The statement was meant to be heavy with a lot more than just the words…

    Comment by Carla — January 2, 2010 @ 11:51 pm

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